so the party was fun on some levels and really sad on others. i wish the hostess hadn't felt such failure but i definitely did.
perhaps it's something in that house.
i don't know.
we'll have to see if it persists next time we're there.

i am quite hungry right now and i feel like i could eat a horse.
she's gone and i am happy and angry and sad and i hate that i can't just settle on one thing.

i need to eat.
i need to study.

i need money.