so now i feel like it all paid off...but it's not like i felt like i was earning up to something.
i mean, i won the heart points game.
that's kind of a big deal to me.
throwing out numbers makes me happy.
it was a nice beach,
it was a nice night,
it was a hateful cold.

boredom is not what i am feeling, i think i am feeling expectant or something like that.
what am i waiting for?